stupid people and a introduction i guess

When I think about my sorry little life I don't think of it as good, abusive father, sexual trauma, abuse. I'm not really the best person either I'll admit that. There are a lot of things I regret but I want to grow from the things I did, I feel like I'm trapped in a stupid small town. Everyone here is so fucking stupid, I don't think people realize that no matter how smart, kind, popular, or famous a teenager is, there is still a teenager, they still have the mind of a crazy person. This is a terrible way of showing who I am but still nothing is really good in my life, my friends are pretty cool I mean they're all I have at this point. i guess I'm stuck like this until I'm old enough to leave.

everything will work out eventually I get that but for now..I'm kinda useless. no job, no money all I got is 30 ex-boyfriends and my awesome fucking friends

I guess this is a good time to introduce myself, hi I'm igby, I'm 15, I'm gay and trans and I'm scared for my fucking life.