Hangups, Life and a Pinch of Regret

As I write this, I sit in a room that I never thought I would ever end up in. A chair I've owned for years now in another house outside of the state I once called home; listening to music from a taste that has never changed even though I have in plenty of ways.

Hello! My name's Chase and I'm back after two years of absence from this cute site. 

It's kind of funny how everything runs back into each other, not necessarily colliding but meshing and squishing like a jello of sorts. A really weird jello. Y'know, I originally got on this social media because a cute alt girl I followed on Insta said she used it. I can't even recall her name, but her image stuck. 

And for those who want to read about some random person's last few years, I present! 

I can't even recall the exact moment I left here, but based on my last blog it was around the time I broke up with my ex? And something about 3 months. Either way, from 2022 til now I've had 4 jobs, one of which I'm still in! These range from Aldi, a credit union and even FedEx. This new job has led me across the country from my old state of NY to the nothingness of WY. Do I regret it? No, not fully. It's pretty horrid to be away from family for so long, but there would be no way for me to grow if I stayed with them forever, y'know?

Moving out at 23 actually made me feel like a failure, oddly enough. I know now that I shouldn't have had any shame and that it was a super safe move to stay at home, but if you saw the room I was in, you would see that it was a tad too small for someone of 6'1. In this new place, I actually have room to shmove and enjoy myself. Hell, I can actually lay down on my floor without hitting a bed or wall :). 

What's the point of all of this? Well, to post something somewhere that isn't Facebook or Insta. Especially since anyone I know hasn't heard of this place, nor do I feel they would ever join. It's nice to just type and let it go, so there'll be more. I'm in a much better place mentally, and I'm glad I made it this far. 

Keep safe everyone. If you need someone to talk to, send me a message. You're doing amazing.