On the Up and Up

Hello, this is my first blog so hopefully ppl like it lol. 

I guess I’ll start by saying last year sucked really bad. And I know it did for lots of ppl. But you know. I had good things happen, don’t get me wrong. Like I moved pretty far from home. Experienced city life, and met my current bf. (Whom I love very much.) But also, a lot of things sucked. I lost the job I moved for which inevitably caused me to have to move again, I was unemployed for a large portion of the year and was only really able to survive because my bf supported me, and I fell into a really bad depression because of this. Everything seemed hopeless, I didn’t want to do anything but also felt like I wasn’t contributing enough, and I missed the city and felt like I screwed my life up. 

I really wanted to give up.

But, I did get a job. Doesn’t pay great and it is retail but it’s been holding me over for a few months now. I still felt like I would be stuck there though.

Come January, I had a lot of big ambitions and goals. And I was tired of my own defeatist mindset and I decided to just apply for whatever jobs I wanted. I mainly wanted to be a table games dealer which was the job I lost beginning of last year.

Well, I got the job I wanted at the casino I wanted to be at too. Orientation is in a few days and I am so relieved that I feel a lot more able to just pick myself up and do things. 

I mainly wanted to write this because shit is hard. I know a lot of ppl have been going through similar things. And I just hope that I can show someone that things can be ok. You can still create healthy habits, and get the job you want, and have the life you want.

So, don’t lose hope okay? And I will be reminding myself as well.