I might have ptsd because of a mental hospital..

I haven't been to the doctor!! but the obsessive thoughts about that place don't stop leaving me. so it's just a guess!!! I just hope that I will live the remaining two years to adulthood and be able to check it out. 

I already have nightmares about this place, constant obsessive thoughts and memories, and a bunch of triggers. DAMN CELERY TRIGGERS ME, JUST BECAUSE ONE GIRL ATE IT THERE, IT'S NOT OKAY I GUESS???

I still constantly feel like I'm going to wake up there soon and everything that happened outside the hospital was just a dream. or the fact that I can be there at any moment, it scares me very much.

and anyway, it's ironic that the place where I was supposed to be cured made it even worse for me :D