Relationships are weridddX(

So I've been thinking a ton recently as I'm in a sort of situantionship with this guy and it's made me think so much about relationships and how they work and stuff. I feel like every time I enter any type of romance I enter this state of limerence andd somehow disappoint myself with the outcome that they weren't able to meet my standards that I set up.

I have also noticed that I'm constantly worrying myself with the idea that the person I'm talking to harbors some type of hate or dislike towards me, especially if they all the sudden start becoming busier than usual.

I also think that in general people set these massive expectations for themselves by seeing any type of social media, film, news and so on and it warps the way we see love and how relationships work and what we expect from others, I never really witness the lows of others relationships and it makes me think that everyone else has a perfect relationship and that it's mostly my fault for things not working out.

p.s. I just really wanted to rant abt this so don't mind it :p