20250121 - i hate driving

sometimes i feel like i'm the Only person who, within a year of getting their license, already knows they hate driving. sure it's liberating, to an extent. i can leave campus during lunch or skip class if i want. i can go get coffee or a little treat before weekend practice. i'm familiar with the euphoria that can only stem from going ninety miles per hour on an empty highway at night. but none of these could ever overshadow my disdain for driving.

aside from weird lane patterns, it's other people on the road. intersections freak me out the most. are you going to turn right or, god and traffic law forbid, left in front of me when you're at a red and i'm at a green? i can see you considering it. please Don't. and merge lanes, too. Let Me In. i have my car on economy mode, too; without it, it just accelerates too rapidly. i have had my license for nearly six months and i still have nightmares about hitting someone or driving over the median or spinning out. driving in the snow Especially irritates me. stop tailgating me! i am going three under because there is snow blowing across the road (which is already covered in slush) and i am going to spin out if i don't brake.