I left my bedroom door open last night. Something is gnawing at my brain cables.

I have a cat. The cat loves my room, but I don't leave it open, so she can't sleep with me at night. But last night I was feeling generous and left my door open for her. It was a mistake.

I can sense that something is different. I displayed a lot of traits of dyslexia today, more than I usually do in my beta testing period, in which I am now.

/you can skip this --- Explanation to what beta testing is: Whenever I create another style of thinking, another philosophy, or just another view on life, I first alpha test it. I do so in writing, by writing through the eyes of a character with this new style, I test its flaws. Then I implement it on my actual life. But because it is still just a test and I can't commit to using another program (way of living), it's a testing period, when I have everything under control and I monitor the effects of the program. However, since the program is so different from my current one, I usually go through different process errors, such as some symptoms of dyslexia, sometimes dyscalculia, schizophrenia, and alexithymia. In my case, these aren't actual mental illnesses, just, as I said, errors that occur when the current program contradicts the new tested one. In said period I am now, so I do face difficulties with spoken and read language, which is incredibly noticeable, since I am a student. However, the program that I'm testing does help me with self-expression and emotion analysis, such as what I am doing now, so when the testing is over, I will extract only the part that is helpful to me, and implement it to my current program. This way I crate myself a more perfect version of the human mind every two or three months. 
/End of skip

Because of the fact that my error data statistic has skyrocketed so much today, I can conclude that something is different. 

Just for precision purposes only, these are some independent variables that could have also somehow affected todays data:

- The fact that I had to complete C2 Reading part 3 in English class today, meaning that I had more opportunities to spot errors

- I haven't had coffee today like normally

- I did work on my Chinese homework and projects due next month almost thrice as much as normally. Chinese is a language that engages both brain hemispheres and forces the brain to work a little differently than normal. I am used to about half an hour a day, but today was an exception, and this excessive brain activity could have affected the data

- We have no tests or assignments due this nor the other week, and that feels strangely unsettling

HOWEVER

I know it is not just an anomaly. As I mentioned earlier, I left my door open last night. I have reasons to believe I have just unleashed something upon myself. Perhaps it's just the fact that it was new, and that is why I have been acting so strangely today, and it's simply me falling out of my rhythm. BUT I have also had hallucinations today. I have heard voices.

That happened only once, when the program that I was testing went against the dictations of my Superego; I heard voices that told me what to do, one moral, one immoral. 

And now I hear them again. But this time, they are just yelling at me and whispering extremely loudly, until my head hurts and I acknowledge them. Then they shut up. 

I think something messed with my brain cables when I was asleep. And now I don't know how to fix it. This is a very inconvenient situation to be in, since I have to finish the beta testing in time to implement it to my program to be ready for exam season. Luckily we have two free weeks so I have enough time and spare brain capacity to figure it out before the holidays, so I can resume the testing.

So I decided to do the following:

- Pause the testing

- Leave my door open today too

- Record the data; any changes happening and why

- Write a report on it tomorrow

Good night, Angels!