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The way my sister thinks that my mom favors me over her is the way my dad favors her over me and my brother. Does she use my father against me? I was supposed to go out with my dad. My sister and I always argue. Me and my dad had plans just us today. To practice driving. But instead, I wake up to my sister gone with my dad and he's doing all the things he was supposed to do with me, with her. Even though he always had days with her alone and has never had one with me. I usually wouldn't care but today it hit especially hard that he ditched me. Why am I so unimportant to every single person in my life. I thought that I got along really well with my father yesterday. I thought he was serious about showing that he cared like my mother says he will all the time. Why is it that I have to go out of my way to do everything. Why can't someone besides my mother show that they care about me instead of being an asshole all the time. HE forgets he has other children. He favors Rachel because she's just like him. She has all the traits and characteristics of a family member on his side. Not much like my brother and me. I never ever have shown resentment or treated her the way I feel about it because I'd never do that in my mind it was never her fault he favored her. But deep down I knew she always knew that and used it to her advantage even though she'd deny it. I don't know why I even care. I usually don't. I just never realized how easy everything came for Rachel. How everything came to her even though she could treat everyone like shit. The way people could realize this and jump back up and go back to being nice as if nothing had ever happened. The good has officially outweighed the bad in my relationship with my sister. I can't jump back up anymore. Even if she does show that she's sorry she's hurt me too much to where I can't recover anymore. I finally understand my brother, why he thought everything came so easy for her sometimes. I never wanted to understand.