Something I really want to do; die (And the reason for MAYBE not doing it)

Ok, I've long since convinced myself that life sucks. Everyone is going to say that I'm exaggerating, but who really cares anyway? I'm just another person giving their opinion on the internet so fuck it. The thing is that I'm already fed up with life and I really want to die but every time I try I survive... It's like my hell is being alive that's my punishment (As I mentioned, many will say; 'Oh, so many lost their lives and you are lucky to be alive' or things like that I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! And no, I'm not saying I don't care about others) And who really cares if I'm dead tomorrow? Many people die every day, it's nothing new, that's how life works... I always have a dream (which is weird since I almost never sleep) My dream is the typical one of being a bird and flying but for some reason I always end up caged which I don't really understand, What the heck does my dream mean? Does it even have a meaning? I don't think so, it's just my imagination... And although this is full of nonsense, the main reason is simply to express myself... So for people who have a shitty life and are thinking the same as me, think twice.I still think that, why? Because for some strange reason there are people who love me, people who don't want to see me hurt and I don't want to hurt them... So if you think about dying, think first of someone or something important to you, a dream, a little brother or sister... Uhm... Friends, best friends (if they have any) flowers... Birds and most importantly, that person you love, who knows? Maybe it will work and I'm not that stupid... Well, goodbye for now