Surfing somewhere far from here

I can't stop thinking about you... Can't stand the idea of me wasting another day not with you. 

I knew we would click but I didn't know it was going to be like this. I've met some of the best people through you, tasted some of the best food with you, and experienced things I never thought I deserved to experience. 

I'm so quick to self sabotage that I decide it would be better if they didn't have to deal with having me in their lives. I know it's not healthy but I just go back to this defensive shell when i'm away from you. 

No one cared about me until I knew you, then everybody loved me, but only for a second, because all I do is talk about you and they ignore me. 

I can feel everyone around me getting tired of my ramblings about you but it's like I'm Cady Heron and you're Regina George, but without the backstabbing and only a little bit of the boy craze. 

I know we'll meet again, I've got this new fire lit under my ass that i'll make sure we meet soon, I just think it's a waiting game until then. I want to better myself for you, cause it's the least you deserve.

Love you forever,

Aspen