I wish I had a bff </3

Hi guys its Ayshia I'm js so ughh I wish I had friends I feel like such a stupid loser all the time for no reason, I just need friends i always say all the time I don't give a fuck about friends n I'm better by myself but sometimes i just have that feeling of yearning for a real cool close teen girl friendship, just a girlfriend. I have my bf and a guy best friend n they're cool but all I really want is a girlfriend or girlfriends like I have GIRL FRIENDS but not GIRLFRIENDS. Everybody has their girlfriend I just want my girlfriend :( I want to go out on walks with her n go eat n yap n do each others makeup and face masks and talk about teenage girl stuff (possibly smoke with) and just go everywhere with her i don't even care about having girlfriends atp I just want my girl and no matter how many girls I talk to or try to be friends with THEY END UP WEIRD. Look I'm weird but in a cool way, they're weird in a fake way and I hate it so much, I try to be friends with a girl, they're cool, I say I wanna b bffs, they say sure but literally turn weird n get dry or b close with other girls instead of "wanting to b bestfriends" with me n I HATE IT I just wish I met a girl like me who likes art and is cool n nice n cares for me as much as i would for her and wants to do everything I talked about, I talked to my bf about it he said keep trying to make that girlfriend but I'm getting tired of trying it's been 2 years and I'm just so tired I just don't know why girls are so weird to me I'm probably the nicest person someone could ever meet n I'd like to think I'm pretty swag but I'm starting to think I'm just a loser now. Idk I think I'm js gonna wait for my bff to find me instead this time. Anyways sorry for the long rant i just had to get this off my chest, i hope to find my bff soon bcuz im 16 n this is supposed to be my prime but I still don't have my bff</3