today was weird

this morning was hell, I dont exactly know why, but I was feeling upset which has been a recent trend for me in the morning/early afternoon. I was looking for something in the medicine cabinet, but I couldnt find anything, and everyone was rushing around doing whatever which made me super fucking nervous, so I hid in the bathroom and cried. after that I came out, and basically ignored everyone cause I was still emotionally raw, and I didnt even know why I was being like this.

anyways I hid in my room for the next few hours while trying to text my mom on my super broken phone. my mom came home and we had a small chat, but it didnt really resolve anything. 

after that I spent the remainder of the day cleaning my room cause it was really fucking messy, and now im here.

today was a shit storm, but atleast for now I feel okay, so thats good. I think I need to vent to someone about my greivences, but I dont know who I can talk to so in the meantime ill just try to find a few coping mechinisms. im gonna try to sign up for the trevor project, but for whatever reason i'm sorta nervous to. I'll work it all out though.

anyway

buh by :\