letting go

hi!!

so, my first entry's topic is letting go. i'm currently in the process of trying to let go of someone right now, and it's pretty difficult. 

i've been thinking about them a lot, like really quite a lot, and i had to force myself to distract myself with other things. i get into this sad, melancholy mood whenever i think of them, just because i know things can never be the same, and just because i miss them a lot. everything about them, their humor, their music taste, their interests and dislikes, just their habits- i get reminded of them. 

what i think is letting go is not completely forgetting about them, because that's impossible, but not letting the thought of them dictate your mood or what you do. for me, my person was a situationship that was probably one sided. it's hard to accept that someone never wanted you, but that's something i have to go through along with the pain of missing someone. i hope some other people can relate to my experience. 

although i might not seem like it now, but i know in the future, i will let go of them. i will go days without thinking of them, and i will feel better. not now, but soon. i will be okay. and if you relate, you will too. 

i hope you liked this entry, my next one will probably be something like this- just reflecting on my self growth journey and whatnot. i'd like to treat this as a kind of public journal where i can share my experiences with others. i'll also always include a song that i really like rn, today's song rec is: 

masquerade - lots of hands (a song on loh's recently released ep, into a pretty room! i recommend you check them out, they're great)