Different

I don't understand what's wrong with me. 

I wanna understand things the way other people do, be able to behave normally and make friends and be a normal, functional person. I don't know what's wrong with me, and I hate it. I hate myself and I don't know why. But I do know why. I'm not the most pleasant person to be around, I lash out and snap constantly, but I'm just so lost. I don't know how to feel. I'm so lost and I just wish someone would comfort me and be understanding instead of just fighting with me. I'm just a kid, I don't know how to handle this. I just want to understand and to be understood. It hurts so much and it feels like I have no one. I hate myself for being like this. I wish someone could just fix me, so my parents would have a normal, happy daughter instead of a miserable, angry whatever I am.

I'm sorry for probably being cringe and annoying and a pick me, I just have no one else to talk to about this. I've felt like this for so long and I don't know what to do about it anymore because no one seems to care enough to actually try and help me.