Unnecessary Feelings

I get what Edgeworth was talking about when he said the unnecessary feelings things. I really do get it. When there are such high circumstances and such high stakes, they truly only serve to get in your way. They get in the way of what we already have, what I've held onto for so long, my future. If I do what my heart wants, I have a chance of losing my everything. If I do what my gut tells me to do, I'll never get to love them the way I know I can. My future will forever be distorted no matter the path I take. I break my bones with all the love I carry. I can't ruin every I've fought so hard over because of a simple feeling. He's the man at the end of the bed. I hope he never finds out. I think I'd rather waste my life away pinning and wanting than ruin the 4-5 year friendship I've held so dear.