I feel a completely different person when I'm with makeup

It's like there are two Eli's.

Eli with makeup: A funny and brave girl who doesn't care about others opinion, and who is always talking and laughing.

And Eli without makeup: A quiet girl who is always in her own world, and who is always worry about others opinion .

Last day I was watching some of my photos and it felt like I was looking photos of other person, like, really.

And it happens the same when I look at me at the mirror when I'm with makeup, it's like looking someone else.

It was a little scary.