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I know I sound like a stereotypical edgy teen but this needs to be said. small vent but mostly just me complaining lolz.
the American school system is way too broken and mundane. I get bullied a lot for being who I want to be, but if I do or say anything back I am the one that gets in trouble. every day is so repetitive and miserable it makes me want to rip my hair out. I don't hang out with my friends outside of school, I don't have any "real" hobbies, all I do is listen to music and sleep. I don't feel real. I feel like a ghost haunting my own house. I'm either made fun of or just ignored. invisible.
I see posts of all of my friends going out and having the ideal "teenage life" and all I can do is just watch because I can't go with them. I used to be able to walk everywhere in town but I moved to a house across a highway (still in the same city). now I just feel isolated bc I cant drive. I'm missing out on the best years of my life.
also, I live in the most BORING place on earth. there's nothing here but concrete, highways, and misery. I miss nature. I miss the sun. I don't want to choke on car exhaust every time I leave my house. we don't have anything here. even just a mall or roller rank or an arcade or SOMETHING would be awesome. the go-to hangout places are a coffee shop, a pizza place, or the damn LIBRARY. I want to get out of this city, but its my home. there's too much nostalgia to leave but not enough to do to stay. this is hell.
sorry 4 being so depressing lolz , I'll post a thrift haul or something fun sometime soon.
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hi! I completely understand where you are coming from. Im 20 but my life when I was in high school was pretty much the same. I felt like a complete outsider and I also never really went out and had like "teenage lifestyle" it sucked cause all the girls around me seemed to be having the time of their lives.(I also STILL don't have my drivers license...) But I do want to give you a word of advise I just want to say that it gets better and really it doesn't suck too much I always was able to pick up hobbies at home that occupied my time. (I still do this because I am in college and now I don't have much desire to go out and try to have crazy fun) I like to paint, read books, do arts of crafts like make things with clay, legos, and I also have been learning to do makeup better! I hope that you find peace, happiness and comfort in yourself ! :p
Thank you sm!! I've picked up more intricate Kandi projects lately, so that's been keeping me busy lol. I feel like its just the seasonal depression kicking in. I'm sure once summer comes around things will get better :)
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