I got bitches

LMAOOO IM SO SORRY FOR THE TITLE, I'm asexual thought but it just fits well to the situation

I'm not social, like not at all, like I'm so scared of people

I've lost friends that had for only excuses that I didn't answer enough (it's true tho, the closest one get to me the less I'll answer cause I feel comfortable enough to not force myself to answer (my ex is an exception cause for some reason I never needed to force myself?)))

So, I'm not sociable, never will I ever dm someone, BUT YESTERDAY

Yesterday a girl from my class texted me, and it kinda surprised me because she has school phobia so I never even talked to her, I barely cross her and all

Which is totally fine, she seems cool but I always assumed that she didn't want people to talk to her for some (shitty) reasons, so I never talked to her. All I did was to follow her cause my friend did so I assumed it was okay?

That ofc immediately made me comfortable, just like when I'm with that one other girl in my class that I know has huge social anxiety so when I'm around her mine just disappears and I become the most open person ever (I love her she has super powers I swear)

So we spent like the whole night talking? She follows some unknown youtubers I flipping love (they're not unknown, I just for some reason have never met someone irl that knew them), she plays Zelda (I love Zelda (I'm a big fan of it since yearssss)), shes watched Adventure Time (my Instagram pfp is Marceline), and she complimented my style (even tho I dress like shit recently because it's winter so idgas I just want to be comfortable and okay with how I express my gender from a day to another and I'm just waiting for the weather to get sunnier)

So she's really sweet

But the problem is: she answers so fast. I hate answering textes (I know, hate on me I don't care, my comfort goes first). And she's like, she talked about wlw (she literally just asked if I had other (than Bubbline) wlw ships that I liked and HOW DO I TELL HER IM NOT FOR HER

Maybe I'm overthinking this, maybe she's not into me that way (I hope so, it's not the good timing sorry pretty lady)

But still, I haven't told no one I identify as agender, and I may have put "any pronouns" on all socials, it's not on Instagram (it's not even in the options (even tho they have plenty of xenopronouns?)) And it's like the most gender affirmating thing I've ever done (I've never told anyone by myself, it's my gender, it doesn't impact them? (I'm selfish sorry))

Anyway I'm overthinking this, I'll just shut up and handle it

But I don't want her to get sad

But I'm not forcing myself just to avoid social awkwardness

Oh I'm drifting away

So I'll just keep talking to her, see where it goes (but my ex first (Camelia the woman that you are (/j(maybe))