Type 1 diabetes

So I’ve never written a blog or whatever but I thought that I’d write about something that is not easy for me. Maybe I should’ve started with something more simple but who cares tbh. I have type one diabetes. And no, it’s not bc I eat unhealthily or something - that’s type TWO diabetes. No-one really knows where or how type one comes from. The thing is, yes I have a blood sugar disease or whatever. I just have to keep it under control and inject myself with insulin EVERYTIME I eat carbs which means basically all the time. I also wear a sensor which keeps my blood sugar in check. And diabetes is considered a disability.

 I mean it doesn’t sound bad right? Maybe not, but in my head I’m a person who can’t live without medication AT ALL, I’m a person with a disability. Like if it hadn’t been discovered on 14. December in 2023 I’d be dead by now. But my point is if even nobody talks about it someone still might be struggling with it REALLY badly. I kind of am tbh. For the first half of the year I didn't accept it, I just didn’t believe it. I convinced myself that it was just a bad dream, but it’s not and I have to live with it forever.

 And do you know how much it “hurts” to see people just eat stuff without making calculations of how many carbs there are. Workingout and not caring about their blood sugar, whether they will collapse or not. I’m just tired of it.

 Some people get the diagnosis at a very young age but I didn’t. So I still remember how it was to be “normal”. I’m not saying that getting diagnosed earlier is better, what I mean is I miss my old life and I hate that everyone worries about me.

 And my biggest fear is what if people think I have diabetes bc I’m chubby and eat too much. Which is not it! I just wish I could eat normally and live my life without worrying constantly about my health/blood sugar. But one thing that I have kind of achieved is not being ashamed of it.

So that was my little idk even what. I just hope that other diabetics know what I mean and people who don’t have it get to know about it a little more. Thanks for reading if you did!!