does it matter or do i want it to

I can never fully wrap my head around how i can feel so angry all the time over the hate in the world 

the same anger that has been placed on me and people i love is now boiling over inside me by consequence of another 

where can i place it down

 I don't want to carry the burden of loving a world that reminds me of my so-called naivety whenever I'm not afraid or angry enough

I'm running in circles 

i want to heal from the past but it's the same world same pain same predators in every line of human existence getting away with it because the world is built around the ones who want more than they should and have the means and anger to keep taking from others

it's not even about myself going through pain rather that our personal villain gets what they want in the end 

a moment of power 

and that makes me want to encompass what power really means without the anger and pain

is it even humanly possible