How I left a toxic friend group..

So.. back senior year of high school.. I dealt with messy ass people in my band group. Band it's self is already a loser activity, but I did colorguard so I thought I was different. I did dumb things and stood up for my friends, and people decided to turn on me.

So coming into university, I was insecure as hell. I had my own issues to deal with (and still do. mostly pent up anger, and learning to chill tf out.)  But besides that, I just was a people pleaser and I didn't like conflict. But I met 12 different people, and they were my everything. But sometimes, perfect isn't perfect. There we're cracks. It all started when people began to date each other. Cliques started happening, and one girl (who was a pick me) started talking about a hierarchy and it almost felt cult like.

I was disrespected by almost everyone. Everyone in that friend group we're really bad people on the inside, they preyed on people who couldn't stand up for themselves, or were too deep into the delusions that they we're perfect people. No ones perfect, I'm definitely not. I still have to growing to do. But I knew I had to stand for myself. I would constantly tell them, "hey I don't feel wanted." They would say, "oh no we love you! it's not like that." But it sure didn't feel like it.

I was always interrupted.

People would not answer me in group chats.

I was constantly over looked.

I was told, I don't bring anything to the friend group.

I would be lied too, or not told about plans.

It got really bad, I even started turning on my friends and family. I hated my mom. I remember, I kept telling her, my ex-roommates mom was trying to be nice and she was being mean. Which was something I regret now. And to this day, I understand why she was upset. The dudes mom wouldn't ever try to get in contact or try to get together with my mom. She would constantly be like, oh I'm busy or give her dirty looks. She was like, "my husbands a lawyer!!!" Like ok bitch fuck you and your husband. You raised a piss loving, std filled, dirty ass, smelly ass, horrible ass, fat ass, dumb ass, dumb dumb, bubblegum, triple fun, ugly bum of a child. Bitch.

But anyways, yeah he likes to piss on people.

He liked to constantly have sex with girls and move onto the next.

He always went too high school parties at his grown age.

He also would constantly kick people of the friend group.

Blatantly disrespect neighbors.

He just isn't a good guy. (The moms fuck ass kid.)

But like he was the ring leader of the friend group and I thought he was really cool. Until I had to stand up and say, don't fucking yell at me. And he stopped trying to get super close to me. Which is crazy because everyone he kicked of the friend group did that. He can suck his right-man hands c*ck for all I care. His roommate was just abusive dumbass who vomits after a cigarette. He abused with girlfriend and he was gay. But she would make fun of it, but he would be mad. Like ok the closet is glass. Him and piss kink loving child kissed at spring break. No hate im gay too. :3

Also my junkie roommate.. he fell in love with this bitch called Mickey (fake name). But he also is abusive, and their relationship was so toxic. They would constantly fuck and keep me out of the room just to fuck. It was only fucking, fighting, and drugs. They arent good people, and he's put his hands on her. We told her to get away from him, but she went back. Because she's an insecure bitch who has no friends because she cant even respect herself and leave that bum ass kid who only has daddy's money. (he's adopted.) But like who am I to tell her what to do? Because she thinks she's all high and mighty. But deep down, I know she's insecure. Why else would you go back to the man that hit you?

She was the one who told me, I don't bring anything to the friend group.

Like ok all you bring is your pussy and your bitch ass attitude.

Everyone in that friend group is catching strays. (i need a therapist)

Another girl, Mickey's pussy in crime, J. She and I liked the dumbass abusive boy. (lets call him tweedledee.) We beefed because I drunkenly told her, I liked him too. And she wouldn't confront me about being mad. I then went to her myself and was like, ok you can have him you go girl. Only for him to not like either of us. Which was fine, the dick was apparently not good anyways. But like, he had man boobies...

She's just a shadow of Mickey. We we're close until she got closer to mickey. And just started treating me like a annoyance. Like ok bitch, your pussy probably stank just like your attitude. No wonder no man wanna stay with you except for mickey and harry.

She was tame, just a bitch. Mickey and Harry changed her.

Last two, AK-47 and JESTER. They we're high school friends of TWEEDLEDEE. I liked them a lot, I would hang out with them a lot. But, something changed when AK-47 started dating THE PISSING KINK man. Like it was really bad, they dated for 2 weeks. PISS KINK man broke up with her for like no reason. And everyone was beefing with him because of it. But tell me why, she made out with him on her birthday in Texas. And proceeds to be the biggest pick me to him. I kept telling her, "girlie, he didn't treat you right. he only wanted to fuck you. he's not the dating type, he's a whore." She would say, "yeah I know.. but like.. idk." Like ok go get chlamydia.. go off?? She changed too.. she started treating me like a kid. Always being not interested in what I say.. it just hurt how she changed.. but like.. I don't feel bad... she did it to herself.. they're meant for each other..

Her other friend JESTER.. I don't have that much resentment.. but she's also just a follower. I found out from TWEEDLEDEE's ex girlfriend, they were talking shit about me. And also they made a whole new group chat without me or another friend. Me and FLOWERS were tired of being treated like shit. We stopped hanging out with them. And they got mad. The Ex-GF got mad, saying they know why we don't talk to them. But you guys just want to ignore it. And they basically told her to get over it. So she stopped talking to them too. Me and FLOWERS don't talk much. I love GOLDIE for defending me. But JESTER, AK-47, and TWEEDLEDEE disappointed me. How could you let them say these things. And you just sit back and say nothing. Like ok.. keep them cult allegations going then.. you're all lost causes and you can all kiss my ass when I'm winning.

It just hurt my feelings because I put so many things off for them..

I did a lot of things with them.

Only for it to be a lie.

Honestly, cutting them off was the best thing I could've ever done. Every time I see them, I know they're suffering. They always said the friend group wouldn't last. But like.. Don't manifest that.. Is u crazy ho? And I don't look at it sadly, I look at it as a step up. Because, why were you made I stopped hanging out with you? I tried to explain why I was upset with them, and nothing would change. So why would I stay somewhere I'm not respected. Like... if anything, y'all should be grateful. But honestly, they're all gross people anyways, so at the end of the day, karma is a bitch. And it's not all bad, I have better people. And I've been told I look happier. They made me hate myself. And I was always depressed. But like, who cares??? Depression sucks so I just don't do it.

But like.. my last thought.. I don't got one. They can stay in 2024. And I'm over here thriving without them. My future is better without them.