please, wake up if ur in a relationship like this

Will I always have to start our conversations? If I don't, will you lose interest and forget about me? If I told you I wanted to know you, how would you react? Every time she talks about something with you, my heart drops. You're not mine, I know. But, oh how badly I want to be yours. How did I fall for you so quickly and easily? I told myself before, when I fall for people too often, my heart will break easily. I'll try one last time, so please. Respond.