Idk I wrote this during ED treatment abt like..neurodivergency

Acceptance has never come easy to me. Objectively, i know what it looks like. You take a piece of information or a situation, you look at it and listen to what its saying to you. Acceptance doesn't speak to me the way it sings to others. It hums at best and is silent at worst. A lullaby that soothes others only seems to anger me. Why should I have to accept change. Why should I have to deal with the world not being made for me. Why does the lullaby pass my ears, leaving me hopeless and stuck. Working to hear the song isn't easy. To train my ears to listen, to really listen, feels impossible. Maybe one day I'll hear the song. Maybe I'll even train my vocal cords to be able to sing it