late night thoughts

hi guys, its currently like 1am and im just up thinking about how im nobody's fav friend. like dont get me wrong, I love my friends but I dont think they love me like I love them. maybe its also my fault cause sometimes I judge them rly bad IN MY MIND (I wld nor say shit in front of their faces or behind their backs) but still tho its normal to judge in ur mind right? and there's a reason why I judge. but anyways, maybe im the problem. im nobody's favourite friend n everybody seems to be SO bored of me like look at hedgehog. the only person that still sticks to me till this day is gorilla. oh my god I love him. but do I rly like him as much as I like hedgehog? idkkk. help me. maybe I didnt know hedgehog that well so im js obsessed w him, the idea of him. gorilla will always be #1 tho. been w me since dAY 1 FYM!  I JS CANT SLEEP EVEN THO IM SLEEPY. idk I feel like everybody thinks im annoying secretly. am I trying too hard to be likeable??? does anyone feel this way? I've never been shitty to anyone!!!! I hope everything works out well..im so scared for the future. ugh. goodnight.