Vent(TW: hallucinations)

So recently for the last week or so I have slowly messed up my sleep schedule...I hate when i do it cause it always messes me up badly. I always fix and mess it up like monthly this is an issue where i sleep in really late and get upset how I waste my day doing nothing. I then try doing the horrible task of 24+hours of no sleep to make me sleep a reasonable time the next day, but then i have this burst of energy that just makes me feel the need to clean, draw, paint, play video games, or go out on a drive and have a smoke. This gets really irritating because I also have schizophrenia and the lack of sleeps makes my hallucinations worsen, normally i just think i see someone is watching me from my door even though it is closed, but with no sleep added i freak out thinking something is touching my legs, whispering in my ear, or even someone might be hiding in the shower while i wash my hands in the sink. I ask my sister all the time to check things to i guess help give me some peace, but i am always convinced that she didn't look right, like what if the thing hiding in the restroom fit itself under the sink cabinets or it hid well in the shower curtains to not get caught. today i woke up at like 1 pm...and i did my course work but i kept having this buzzing or ticking i cant really tell or remember but it was like in my head and I had kept opening my home door and checking for unexpected guest cause i kept hearing foot steps and like the door was moving. I also didn't eat till 5 because i was just scared if i left my room again would the guest i kept thinking was at my door would already be inside...especially since my mom hasn't even come home yet she left to the doctor for her friend. It bugs me a lot and my therapist has been trying to help me with all this with advice on learning that what i see and hear cant hurt me but i feel this unbarring feeling all the time it will hurt me even if i know mentally i just get this dread of it still happening. 

anyways my advice If you have schizophrenia or any other psychosis endued mental illness DONT MESS UP YOUR SLEEP SCHEDULE  you need the rest to make these issues less prominent but that doesn't mean they will go away completely which sucks but you can always try and make it less bad  Take care yall :3