You were good to me... then we stopped being good to eachother.... until the next life.

I think it was your cousin assaulting me... I dont know. Somewhere along the line a lot of work I did in therapy became undone. Having been assaulted and screwed over when all I wanted to do was help really traumatized me.

Then our nonbinary partner abused, manipulated and controlled both of us... we were not the best to each other then. 

I became a lot more sex repulsed but did not realize it at the time. I now identify as ace flux because sometimes I am sex repulsed, sometimes not. I was just trying to figure that out.

We were poly and open; I encouraged you to find another partner for your hyper sexual needs. I did not think that just because they had money to blow, you would neglect me emotionally.

At the end of the day, maybe you wanted to end things with me but did not know how, and pushed me to end it instead? Maybe you were only with me all along because you had nowhere else to go? I don't know. Your actions were opposite your words.

You lying to me while I was in the hospital was the final straw for me.

But even now, I wish you nothing but the best. I hope you are safe, and I hope you are being treated well. I hope your toxic manipulative family is far away from you.

You were a good partner to me up until the last year when we were in that triad. Then neither of us were as good to each other as we should have been. 

I forgive you. I still miss you. I think I always will. But I stand by my decision to end things.

I wish you nothing but the best.

Until the next life <3