𓇢𓆸 𝖉𝖎𝖘𝖙𝖔𝖗𝖙𝖊𝖉

i feel so detached from myself.

i dont know who i am.

nothing really feels like me.

since i was a child i never had a permanent friend group

ive been friends with the popular kids and the outcasted kids

ive been friends with foreigners and compatriots

ive been friends with catholics and atheists

ive been friends with the poor and with the rich

the list goes on

but who am i?

my perception of myself is so distorted cause ive been a lot of people in 1 body

i am so many people in a single brain

ive been too loud to be quiet but too quite to be loud

ive been too handsome for the ugly but too ugly for the handsome

ive been too poor to be rich but too rich to be poor

ive been too known to be unknown but too unknown to be known

i cant describe myself cause nothing really feels like me.

the words people use to describe me feel so far away from who i actually am yet it feels like they are just describing something superficial even if ive known them my entire life

the words people use to describe me feel so far away from who i actually am but how am i supposed to be sure about that if even i dont know who i am

ive tried 

these clothes

these hairstyles

these accessories

these colours

these make up

these shapes

these pronouns

these dialects

these ideologies

these likes

but nothing actually feels like mine

my perception of myself is distorted

ive felt detached from myself and i never noticed