Wed. 8/31/2022

 I find myself in a dilemma, as I am torn between various activities that interest me. On one hand, I want to draw, but I cannot decide if I should use my tablet or paper. Additionally, I want to practice academic drawing and play the guitar, as well as Nintendo 64/PS1 games, OSU!, and Stardew Valley. Furthermore, I am interested in writing both fandom fanfiction and original character fanfiction, as well as poetry.

    However, despite my desire to engage in these activities, I often struggle to decide what to do and end up doing nothing productive. Instead, I waste my time watching YouTube videos until the early hours of the morning and subsequently waking up late. At times, I question whether I may have autism or some other mental health condition, as I dislike living in this manner. Regardless, being in my shoes is not a pleasant experience.