my life revolves around countdowns

i was told I should start a diary and using spacehey feels very main character. very pete wentz live journal

63 days until my trip to london

123 days until i graduate high school

177 days until i see my chemical romance in seattle

221 days until i move the nyc for college

it feels a bit depressing that i kinda only see my life in terms of countdowns. it makes me wonder if im missing out on stuff because of my inability to live in the moment. but i really dont like the moment so why would i want to live in it?

its nice to have things to look forward to all the time. it reminds me that right now im just in the waiting room from oh the places you'll go by doctor seuss. i always liked that book as a kid and i think i like it more now that i can relate to it.

things that are good right now:

• i got a face value pit ticket for mcr in seattle today. shout out to wrench for selling me that
• i had a really good cup of coffee today. vanilla almond milk latte is my go to order alway

• i have to stay so late at school because im acting in a musical i dont care about
• i dont have any irl friends who get me so i feel really lonely a lot

im reading where are your boys tonight right now. its really good. everyone who likes music or alt subculture should read it. and i've been listening to a lot of infinity on high. 10/10 album.

this felt really nice to write down. maybe i should do this more often.

xoxo

El