im scared.

im scared that i might say the wrong thing to him, i feel like if i say one wrong thing then hes gonna lash out on me again. i dont want him to be mad at me. i had to drop a friend just for him to not be mad at me. i wanna be friends with him but im scared of doing or saying the wrong thing. ill do anything for him even if that meant hurting myself just for him to not hate me again. whenever i did screw shit up he would yell at me, he would also act really weird around me.. idk what to do anymore. i love him so much but at the same time im kinda scared of him.