schools only care after someone dies

my brothers high school graduation (class of 2022) had 2 empty rows because of suicide victims, i find suicide to be a personal subject because of my own attempts and others who have been open to me about their past. 

its cliche to say, but i hate school.

ive tried to take my life because of school and id never open up to my parents about it because they barely accept me being trans. i like work and school better than what i need to call my "home"

this probs sounds like ur standard agonistic teens public blog but its different i promise. 

i dont have many places to put these thoughts, art is hard for me, music is a passion and all i need is a guitar and instrument cable(cable/cord you plug the guitar into the amp). 

sorry if this was sad to anybody, i hope you are doing okay. 

if you feel burnt out dont hold your tears back, cry yourself to sleep. its okay. 

for the probs 2 people outside of my bulletin friends that'll see this, have a good day and feel free to hit me up, leave a comment here so ik who