awakening

I decided to make a space hey account, some of my friends have made profiles since the "TikTok ban" announcement. I might also make a rednote account 2. but anyways for my first blog I wanted 2 talk about my dream last night. I was very upset at myself yesterday and upset but my dream almost brought me back into reality. I was in this aircraft like an airplane but it was close to the ground and it was like a community with grass and houses but floating. I was with my friend lexi that I haven't seen since rehab in February 2024. she showed me around this place and showed me a car that you walk into and call your friends or family, or you could look into a tiny eyehole and see what they were thinking. I was going to try it but I decided against it. anyways she took me from the car to the main area where everyone was. I saw someone I don't really like, I've never met this person before I just know them because they are in a relationship with my ex boyfriend. I was upset at first seeing them and I don't really know how I recognized them bc I've never even seen what they look like but I guess it was my own interpretation, they sat down next to me and we just talked. I can't remember much of our conversation but it hit me really hard and almost changed my perspective on how I view myself. I really miss my ex still but this dream made me rethink everything and now I know what I need to do. I think I need to move on with myself and not stick around on the past that everyone else has long forgotten. I was just afraid no one would understand me like he did. I think that there will be more people in and out of my life and I need to accept that. I really don't love change too much its one of my biggest weaknesses. I got sad when my nana said she would oil the drawers so they don't squeak because I love the sound I grew up with. things are gonna change a lot so I really am gonna work accepting it. 

thank you for reading my awakening.