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Just trying something new.
Im writing a blog to try something new in Spacehey. I just started like probably days ago and my profile is still not done cuz Im getting tired of reading and copy-pasting codes (sry Im a procrastinator) so Im trying to get my motivation back by writing something.
Why do we lose motivation?
It's like, one day everything was set for life, and the next, I feel like that 'everything' was no longer a part of my life. I've always liked drawing, and music. And now Im losing my passion for it. I used to draw every single day, play guitar every single day, and now Im just doom-scrolling. How do I get them back? Now I only play the guitar when I have a school project or anything that require me to play. I mean, I still doodle but I never draw anything seriously anymore, even though I wanna go study art. Im rethinking my life choices now, before its too late.
Does anyone feel the same? Or is it just me.
I wanna to go to a college. To learn everything again before dropping off into the real world. That song from Paramore, "Aint it Fun" is NOT doing any favors for me--who is already scared of the real world. What if I fail to get a job? Fail to do something good for my family? What if I ended up in a wrong circle of friends and ended up dying from overdosing or something? FUCK theres just so many possibilities and Im scared of growing up.
I ended up oversharing.
I hope this is a safe space. I think nobody I know knows about this website, so Im good. Im just gonna leave a poem in the end so it seems like a good post even though this is just a venting or rant session.
To be or Not to be
Foresights as I was told: To be
Insightful: I was yet to be
To be determined who I was
and who I am just rust from the past
Stands of my hair burnt on the table
To be crust, or to be smoke: They was yet to be
Crust to damn the table
Smoke to damn the people
Permanently state, not to harm
To harm; but to set free
In the end, I am yet to be.
Fuck that was shit okay bye thx for reading ☆ ★
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min
hii! I just saw your profile and it already looks so cool! and it's okay to feel what you feel right now, it's practically normal because no one's ready for the future! the future is always changing and all you can do is just to let it all flow.
I recommend to reconnect with nature, literally, just to get the motivation back and to rest. It sounds simple but people tend to overlook it.
If that doesn't work, I recommend to change your routine, set goals and find inspiration while taking regular breaks. Know what motivates you at first and really, be kind to yourself because at the end of the day, your still human.
Failing is still progress, don't let that discourage you.
Omg thank you so much you are so nice! I see, I will try to do your advice, it does been a while since I connect with nature. Maybe I'll try journaling in the nature after riding a bike (it has been a while either). Again, thank you so much for your kind input!
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no problem! I hope you had a fun time, I always wanted to ride a bike! maybe go to the beach if you had the time, find a secret place that's all for yourself. that's my little secret to keep myself going! <3
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