January 13, 2025

I’m definitely failing physics class, but a friend and I are already thinking in a way to not present an exam to pass it.

I’m not wearing makeup today, so I probably look sick and groty. Cause after almost five years without acne it suddenly decided to show up. That only shows how good and bad life can get at once.

If I let myself be 100% honestly I feel such like a shitty friend (or person in general, maybe). I wish I was good and funny, I just can’t bring myself to try it.

And of course I fucking miss her, my friend. But it seems like there’s always something there to avoid us getting together (in a hang out way), sometimes I feel ita bit her fault.

I kinda miss him, but still not sure about it (maybe I don’t). I want him? Of course I do. Do I love him? Probably, it can be different of what I have in mind. But he seems to be in love, I don’t think it’s about me. But that only means is about someone new or the one before me (or one of the ones, I don’t know); it make me sad to think about it, but not enough to make me feel sick.

Besides that and the cold of the weather I’m fucking fine.

And I need money, I mean I have but I need way more.