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I'm scared. With all that's going on in the world I forget that the possibility of the end is real. Our whole lives were just waiting for something to happen. Were waiting to get our first kiss, our first love, our first relationship. The idea of a first car or job or even graduating highschool is the whole first half of our lives. It's worrying about these things constantly. But what happens if everything goes to shit before I even get to experience it? I know how crazy I sound. With the fires in california and tiktok ending. It's not that those things are the biggest things to happen in my life and that's why I care. I care because I get all this important information from TikTok. My mind is squeezing everything it can get in before it's gone. All this shit that I have hardly any knowledge on so I probably sound naive. But that's my point. I'm too naive. I want to know more. In a way gen z is more ready than anyone. After all, other generations didn't expect these great tragedies. We do. We have the freedom of knowing these horrible horrible things are possible and we just deal, we deal because we've experienced a lot of them as well. Many of us grow up with our parents wanting to be us. "when I was 20 I had my shit together", "when I was your age I did more than you" blah blah. In a way they're right. But things in our time, right now. Are very different from theirs. Who wouldn't want to be a 20-year-old kid right now. Many parents are children at the age of 50. They're scared of growing up so they judge us. We can't judge them either as much as we want to well because..it's their first time living too. Aren't we all scared of getting older? I don't blame either side. In simpler words...I wanna be able to live far enough to see myself age, even if i'm scared because thats the life experience.