★ wallflower

Do you ever feel like you wanna be friends with someone, and they seem interested in you, like you share similar interests and all: but you genuinely struggle to reach out to them? Every time you reach out it's a subtle and really nonchalant way, like you act like you don't even really wanna be friends.

But you do. You really do. 

The only thing that stops me from pursuing friendships is that I'm worried I'm not interesting enough or people just straight up don't like me for some reason, even if we obviously get along.

This always stops me from having more friends. I really like people and I wanna get to know them but I just feel as if they don't like me and I should stop bothering them.

I genuinely struggle to make friends at this point, so I decided to make a post here, which I'm not used to doing at all. I'm really used to keeping my life under wraps and I'm usually a super private person, but I'm really bored of being alone.

I don't know if this is influenced by some sort of psychological thing (OCD, Anxiety, Autism, etc), or if I just lack general social skills. My mental health throughout my life hadn't been considered by my parents and I was sort of neglected in those terms.

I'm scared I'll delete this post under some pressure of my own doing and end up regretting my decision. I don't want that, I really want to maybe become friends with people, even if I'm scared of doing it. I always cave and delete things -- especially when I get a little interaction from others. I just don't like the feeling of attention, even if it isn't a lot.