wat da wat

erm idk how to post pictures yet…so anywaysh. today this random added me on insta and said “ Ur account is dope PLUUH🗣🗣🗣🗣” ROFL i thought it was odd but eh i was bored and thought i’d just be nonchalant me (teehee).. anyway i responded like 3hrs after n atp he was high apparently n somehow thought i was his friend but realized i wasn’t. 

anyway this is how the convo goes:

random: “U have nice long hair for a dude”

tool(me): “thanks !!” “actually cut it recently, layers”

random: “Sure bro I'm tryna grow my hair too fam”

he thought i said i was planning on cutting it:

random: “Nah fam it suits u u should keep it”

then..

random: “Hol up” // “Ur not a guy💀” [tool note: wrong “you’re” but </3]

tool: “well!”

random: “I just saw ur highlights💀” // “Ong I'm too high💀💀”

erm! “fuck” [as youngsters nowadays say] my stewpid highlights bro 

idk we kept chatting after that and i actually got some good manga recs. we then got on call for a bit over two hours,, up until semi-recently i hadnt been accustomed to calling people but i thought it’d be good for exposure to something. idk it was fun maybe a new friend but it really doesn’t matter much, fun conversation, though. sometimes i don’t like meeting new people for fear of it only being me getting too close too soon but i doubt this random will be a reoccurring character. i don’t quite like the way he texts.

erm as for the chat thing i first wrote, idk man…i’m a pipsqueak who cant think for myself and this is gah i dont know i dont know. i’m just me. i still am not ready to acknowledge/accept who “me” is, who “I” am—i either don’t know or don’t want to find out for the sake of overall comfort maybe it’s both, maybe it’s a whole different thing that i’m still unaware of.

i’m starting to dislike the way i speak, not my voice or anything just the way I word and phrase things. i’ve become too self conscious of it and i don’t wish to come across as passive or vague but i probably won’t change the way i speak.

i didn’t reread anything so excuse and spelling errors or mistakes