Am I crazy?

Hi!! I'm Lawliet, again :p

You know that time of the moth when u're feeling kinda blue and tired? (Assuming that this happens to everyone), well, I AM on that time of the month, but like... Every day of my life tbh. I'm not trying to exaggerate, I do know that I can be kinda dramatic sometimes (Perks of being chronically online I guess) but I'm trully not being a Drama queen rn. I'm literally a s*icidal, like I REALLY  have s*icidal tendencies and depression (plus anxiety n PTSD but that its off topic). Getting to the point, sometimes I go through lapses of negativity and stress, and while being in one, I can stop thinking abt the most unrealistic scenarios. Why the hell do people feel random sadness? Is it like some reflex? I picture it like "WOW its been a lot since the last time I cried, lets get to it".

Obviously I'm not trying to say it on an offensive way nor mocking ppl who goes through this. I mean, I DO TOO (and a lot). Its just that the way it happens, like all of a sudden, just surprises me a lot. I can be safe n sound one day, but then the next day I can be suffering on my bed, it happens out of nowhere! -_-

Anyway, that was a lot of yapping already. Hope u're doing good, please take care.

Love, Lawliet.