Down in a hole

Feels like I'm in an endless loops of creation, with perfection or something great right in front of me and then hating on it and thinking it's or I'm not good enough so then I try to do better and strive for said "perfection" but within my loop I understand as of today, that it is unknowable because it is right in front of us and we don't see it because we don't want to, whether it is because we compare to others or are just plain hard on ourselves, take this as me rambling not sure if anyone can relate but this is just how I see things.