me (literally)

im me but sometimes I don’t. I’m some random person that literally says “run it” to every sound I hear in my house during the night but yet I’m some real person that can do anything in the world? I have so much freedom, yet I’m some stupid ass that needs to appreciate my life more. I could literally blow up my house, rob a bank, or just shoot myself right now if I wanted to but I don’t. I make everything sound so shitty but when you think of all the things I can possibly do in this world. That sounds amazing I feel trapped yet free at the same time. I feel like life is something to escape I feel like I wanna escape, yet I love life so much. That’s why I feel like myself but don’t at the same time. Something is seriously wrong with me but yet I don’t care. I feel so free but the future is also a scary part of life. Now I don’t know if I believe in “luck” but holy shit. The fact that I could be dead or alive in the future makes me wanna kms. Cause that shit sounds scary. I hate the future I don’t know what my future will be and I hate it so much. I have no clue why I’m ranting on Spacehey but wow I love the retro style. If I see this in the future pls end it cause wtf.. Goodnight.