again

i hate my self for being so sensitive, i hate myself for being a crybaby. sometimes i said to myself

 "hey stop crying!the world is too hard for a crybaby like you!. stop crying this is nothing! your mother been thru something more harder than this and she stronger than you! there's people out there who can hurt you more and you gotta prepared for that! stop being a crybaby! life is harder than you think so stop being weak! the world doesn't care of how sad you are!"

at this point i feel weak not physically but mentally. do you ever feel like this?

like when you woke up you feel numb instead of yawn you just sigh, then when you eat you didn't feel full or doesn't feel like hungry you just stare at your food and with blank expression (cause that's what i did), then when you sleep again you thinking like "here we go again..." and it repeats all day till you don't know when the cycle will end.

or am i just being weak and spoild?