one of those "easy to love hard to fuck" girls sucks

k so by the tile ur probably like "wtf is this girl talking ab" howervver lemme explain

so ive grown up always being abused tourtred by men and i basically know the inner workings of a man. (MEN, DO NOT COME IN MY COMMENTS SECTION LIKE, "nahh i dont do this wtf" OR "whos we this is NOT me) because even if its not u, it can be most men. 

men are creeps. prervs. all men get random boners, no matter who they see, some or most men thinks with their dicks. but moral of this is that most men find a really attractive girl a really atractive girl becuase they can just picture in their mind getting freaky with this woman. she looks "fuckable" now ladies if u are worried about look fuckable thats jus a way that a mans brain works there is nothing wrong or slutish that u are doing i promise ur just existing. anywyas, some men even like the pretty girl because they are pretty and want to be able to bag something lik her and show her off to his friends like he owns her, also some men even find girls who wear makeup, with bbls, beautiful despite the fact that they say they want someonje natural becuase their ass is fat and they have a beautiful fuckable face. 

i have asked the guy im talking to right now a series of questions and its this..

:1. would you say my personality is very attractive or easy to gt attracted to?

his response: "yes i would say that"

2, on a scale of 1-10 how flirty would you say i am off of first glance or first converstation

a: 1.5 maybe 2

3. have u ever been turned on while talking to me?

a: "no but ive probalbly had a boner becuase they happen"

4. on a scale of 1-10, 10 being easy, how easy am i to talk to?

a: "10."

now i asked these questins toget to know more about myself and what type of girl i really am and if i feed into that narrative of being fuckable or a diffrent type of girl. 

the reason why i asked these questions is also for follow up, i have alwys typically been the girl where your mom loves me, your family loves me, we always have a deeper ocnnection than just lust or romantics, and boys dont usually approach me unless its a rare situation where we just end up meeting by mutual friends or something. now if i was a "fuckable" lookin girl, i do think that i wouoldve had many men in line for me waiting for me to respond to them but all of the connections that i have with anyone are typically deeper than that. lets maybe even sya that i am the quiet friend in the friend group that men only chose because i keep to myself and i am very humble. 

wiht all of this information it has lead me to belive that i am more of a soul-tie, easy to talk to type of girl than a lets fuck and get married and then dip and leme brag on u type of girl. now, why does it suck you may ask? ECAUSE IVE ALLLLWAYS CRAVED MALE ATTENTION UGGGGGGH unfortunatly i am so deprived at love that i geek when a male even looks at me, even if a guy did just want to fuck me i would genuinly be excited due to past traumas. it sucks becuase i am deprived of love from any man, whihc is uncluding my own father (i think he is the root of the way i am becuase i never knew how to talk to men after he left?) and i would love to be seen by others in the way that i see them, i find myself gazing and daydreaming about a boy that is 2 feet in front of me often and knowing that thats akk you might ever have up until marrige SUCKS!!! (also i find myself very beautiful and i think that some of it is good) if u are lik me can u plz explain another reason why being a lover girl rather than a lust girl is a struggle. k baiiiiiiiiii

        xxx

          tabi