i hate how hard it is for me to make friends!!!!!

sometimes i feel like i'm lucky. i have a best friend that i love. we like the same things, we share musical tastes and many opinions, and there is no secret about me that he doesn't know. but at the same time i feel sad. if every person has a skill, hobby, or "thing" (playing an instrument or a sport, something like that) my "thing" would be that i love socializing. i love making friends and talking to people, but, for personal reasons that i'd rather not say (i know i'm venting a little, but i have my limits, lol) i ran out of friends, except him. something is missing in me. i'm missing people in my life, but it's hard to find them. it's hard to find someone with a personality similar to mine. it's not because i think i'm unique, i'm just unlucky. i don't care if we don't like the same thing, i just want to connect with someone. and yet, it's so hard!! so i got to a weird point where i don't want to talk to anyone. i don't want anyone to send me a dm, i'm not interested in anything, it makes me angry to be talked to. maybe because of my bad past experiences. i'm in a state of mind where i don't want anyone to talk to me but i feel lonely if nobody does, too.