what to do with my life after i become 18 or sum idk

pretty much i graduate high school next year it flew really fast i got a hate and love relationship though with high school but its more of a hate thing anyways, i always had high hopes for things no matter what, i always had been let down as a kid and usually my parents werent as trust worthy as i suppose good parents would be so i expected bare mediuim but if being honest when it comes to stuff thats more so my control i do hope best im not always a negative person or mean and unspirited its just when people are involved they dont do what my brain thinks is right so anyways enough about that, my life later one first off ill just go with some backstorys itll be short i think idk maybe not goodluck!

freshmen year was very scary i didnt know anyone that year and hell i dont even rememebr the teachers at this point maybe 1 or 2 but i think that was my sophmore year maybe no never mind freshmen anyways it was okay i guess i had more like injurys that year but other than that i think i was doing kinda good.

than my sophmore year took a turn and i was almost failing everything i was so drained i oculdnt take it anymore bro i was so drained it was actually hell on earth i got bullied more too hell i didnt even know who those guys where who bullied me even worse is that most of the teachers didnt know how to deal with someoen like me but and i rlly hated my enlgish teacher she was so mean i dont get why older teachers always want to do things older style like bro no one can understand u plus they be doing it like we soliders ready for war why im getting punished bc i was sick and couldnt do the work like huh do they expect kids to rlly try anyways... 

junior year one of the worst years still dealing with it btw many because most of the teachers first semeester i didnt like they were weird and didnt know how to deal with someone like me soit was hard to understand or even do assignments hell my first hour teacher didnt even have a desk for me ikt was so dumb it kinda got better 2 semester the work is hell so much i just came back from break why i got 10 assignments luckly i did it and i got bullied so much worser like most kids for some reasn think im stupid so they taunt me by acting like a special ed kid which is crazy bc im not and plus they made weird jokes about me lets just say if i were to die right now and go to hell the infinite lope of junior year would be my hell 

but anyways for the most part it was just brutal shit that i dont wanna go back to so much work, bullying, annoying teachers, lazyness, drained, mental health but now its my junior 2 semester which is the last one of the school year i actually gotta try (i say as im missing more than 5 pieces of homework) but i am actually trying this time just slowly ig idk i actually hope i dont fail or anything lik that but yea um

so about my future i always wanted to be in like somewhere far away from my family but im rlly scared that bc of my grades but also me being black and plus not knowing any languages it would just be safer to stay in americas ewhihc might be the case but than if i do an american college i wont be closer to all my European friends and the college i want to go which is way further than where i am right now it would be much harder to talk to many of them even if its a 1 hour more difference so thats life kinda but i just hope i atleast only one thing i pray for and determined as of right now to get is atleast far away from my parents and marry some lesbian chick or some bisexual guy bye bye and i know theres errors here but to lazy :p