Midterm season is killing me

1/10/24

Hi again. I guess my blog isn't gonna be daily, at least right now. No one cares about it anyway, it's just my digital journal. I've been dying to go on Spacehey the past however many days it's been, but I've been really busy. It's midterm season and I'm drowning. I'm chronically ill and I've missed kinda a lot of school. It's made it hell to try to pass. I used to get As and Bs and now I'm happy to get a D and pass. But whatever cus I don't think I'll go to college. I want to be on Spacehey more over the weekend, but next week is midterms and the audition for the school musical, so I probably won't be very active. I also have solo and ensemble on the 18th, which I'm so scared for. I really need to fix my diction and breathing. This is my first time doing a class B song and it requires more time than I've had to work on it. It's a beautiful piece called Sebben Crudele if anyone wants to listen to it. I also really haven't had the time to practice for the audition in a while. I really need to know by now, but I can't decide if I want to sing the guy or girl audition song and whose monologue I want to read. I'd much prefer to get a male role because it's set in 1928 and I REALLY don't want to wear a dress. The directors don't seem to want a "girl" playing a guy part though. I think the drowsy chaperone herself would be a fun role, but A) I don't think I really have a chance at getting the role, and B) she wears a dress. Sooooooo idk. George or someone would be a fine role, but there's kinda a lot of guys auditioning and the directors way prefer giving a guy that isn't even good at acting the role over a girl or nb. 

I really need to leave for school now, but I'll try to revise this and add on later. I really need to dump all my thoughts out of my brain. bye for now.