hi again (Vent kinda)

I don’t really know what category to put this in, but I guess I just wanted to talk about how I’ve been feeling for about 7 months, maybe. I’m not really used to this kind of thing, and I’m never usually a person to vent online or be public about my feelings, but I just don’t know what to do anymore. I guess I just honestly feel numb to everything, and although I try so hard to be the best I can, I just don’t think I can, and I feel like I’ve failed everyone, including my girlfriend, my family, and my friends. I just don’t know how to help myself, and I feel so bad about feeling so numb. I just wanna feel something again, but I can’t even cry anymore, and it might just be because I’m a teenager, but I don’t wanna be stuck feeling this way because I wanna make myself and others happy again. I keep doubting myself Anyway, goals, and the things I used to love like music and video games now just seem so boring, and I don’t really see any point in anything. I mean, I was on a lot of medication, but I stopped around a month ago. I don’t know; I just hope to get better someday. Anyway, thank you for reading if you made it this far, and I'm very grateful for you. :))