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for the most part of my life for some reason ive always had challenges with explaining things or giving a good point that people would understand mostly because i dont talk much so that skill kinda went down the drain over time resulting in this huge issue, why exactly is it so hard to tell my feelings? this wouldnt be much of an issue if i was maybe less into drama, issues around the world, or many other things but i am so thats kinda a bummer i suppose anyways but the feelings things usually i can expresice things it just i wanted to explain it in a deeper level but my brains so dumbbbbb not even joking i could have the best word for a setence than i would forget how to spell it and ruin an awesome text i could make and think about giggling while i sleep or when theres drama and they dont understand me manly because i get so hyped about stuff i forget words which results in me not making any sense (which will probably be the case reading this because i am not checking for grammar mistakes) than the bigger bigger bigger issue when i ACTUALLY do try to think before i speak and put the senetence into a good form of writing I STILL MESS UP LIKE WHAT?? HOW CANT U UNDERSTAND ME I GENUALLY TWEAK OUT IT MAKES ME SO SAD BECAUSE I SWEAR I HAD AN AMAZING POINT FOR THE CONVERSATION OR JUST IN GENRERAL HELL I CANT EVEN TELL PEOPLE MY EMOTONS OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT EITHER  and yet even with all of this i want to be a writer when i grow up im so cooked.