Learn to love 💕

Growing up I was always picked on. Majority of the time it was only because of my weight. Did it bother me as kid? Absolutely. Did I care what others thought of me? You bet.       

     As I got older I stopped caring about what others had to say. Mostly because if I limited myself based on what other thought or said about me then I would miss out on some really great things .

     Forward many years ahead and I find myself more scared than ever to do new things , to do things on my own because I’m afraid of what people are going to say. 

      To be honest I would love to blame it on the pandemic and the fact that I really didn’t leave my home unless it was absolutely necessary for almost a year. Or that the multiple break ups with my ex and all the nasty words that came with it played a role in it.  But none of that would make my fears true. 

     I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and trying to figure out why I feel this way. The only thing I could come up with is that I just don’t love myself. Some how over the years I’ve let my self confidence diminish. I finally took those words that everyone else said and started saying it to myself. My biggest fear is that I believed them. 

      I am my own worst critic and I need to learn not to be. I need to remind myself again and again that if I stop doing the things I love because I’m afraid someone might stare at me or look at me the wrong way, that they might whisper about, I will miss out on so many things. I’m only hurting myself. 

      I once read that “limits only exist in mind”. I think that’s true.  Those limits and fears are only in my mind and are not a reflection of what I can do. 

      I’m ready to see what the world has to offer again, and live my life to the fullest! I’m on a journey to regain the self confidence I once had. To love myself more than I would love someone else. 

      Stay tuned ! It’s about the get adventurous!