I'm honest to god at a loss with what to make of my life.

So.. to start things off..

I MIGHT have a shot at getting a job soon, HOWEVER my worry extends far beyond that.

Because how exactly will a job help me accomplish things in the current time, considering I'll hardly make enough to get all the things I wanna get and do the things I wanna do. I feel like life's wayyyy too short to just work through it all- or am I alone on this one?-  

Like, I bought courses on CySec and stuff, but even if I do these, I'm still not guaranteed a job, let alone proper pay, and most definitely not proper financial conditions outside of my influence like prices at the grocery store. Is it too much to ask for proper living conditions nowadays?

Or maybe I'm just being a hypocrite here?..

Please correct me if I'm wrong. I really just... wanna live my life, y'know?