What is missing...

3:03 AM 1/8/2025

today is one of those night that i wondered what's missing from my life. 

I keep telling myself that these thoughts that i have are temporary and will go away eventually and its very weird cause it lingers not going away.

so i think what i have...possessions, people in my life, past connections with people.. but its not enough.

so i thought to myself why I'm I like this why do i want more if i already have enough.

is it money no I'm 16 turning 17 i don't have responsibilities just yet.

is it friends not really cause i like being alone sometimes, but why does it always feel like a puzzle piece is missing.

its truthfully weird to me its worse cause i don't know how to feel about it maybe i need to understand myself what i want and focus 

but I'm to scared to step out my comfort zone but each day I try to break it by interacting with people and it dose help making me feel okay and normal

my goal is too find my purpose and know what future i want i think i want to try everything i can possibly do 

hopefully i can finally put everything in its right place and now I'm planning too organize my life i will have full control of my life full independency doing whatever i want whenever i want

and a major goal i want to make is too change the world and to be honest i don't know how but somehow i will 

i will become the best version of myself and i don't care how long it takes